silver ampersand gold

im coughing so hard im afraid i might pee in my pants... or worse. this is a serious problem without an apparent remedy.

i taught my dad to talk in an asian accent. well, i didn't teach him, but i've encouraged him. the other day i called him and he said "your dog got long nail. it hurt me real bad. scratch me in my knuckle". i laughed. he said "it not funny. dat hurt real bad in my knuckle". then i figured out he was saying nipple. i laughed so hard i almost peed in my pants.

laughing is fun, isn't it? losing your mind with happiness is one of the greatest feelings in the world. except for the raging headache you get afterwards. i imagine it's like drugs.

this early morning on my way to work, the moon was so big and bright and beautiful, i almost died. i tried to take a picture on my iphone, but we all know how pictures like that turn out. i only take selfies. and artistic photos of my food.

i think i'm growing up. i made a budget and want to be back in MN. these are both signs of adulthood. and dysfunction. and disillusion. mostly daydreaming.

good friends are hard to find, and when you find a lot of them it's hard to reason as to why you keep moving further and further away from them. some days, as i try to create a new experience and community here, i can't help but think i am a crazy fool. yes, it's true, make new friends and keep the old--one is silver and the other's gold. but isn't gold worth more than silver? based on the amount of gold buying stores in strip malls, i think the answer is yes.

shauna niequist captures my feelings more superbly than i could ever relay --here. isn't she right? i think she is. maybe all my friends could come here? i have plenty of blankets and starburst jellybeans!